“How’s My 2020 Book Resolution Going?” You Ask. Fucking Terribly lmfao

***Prepare yourself for a very long post with very few pictures. The upside is that the length is largely due to me listing off a huge number of books so like…rapid scrolling is probably not going to hurt your comprehension of this..ramble.***

This post in a nutshell

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I’ve probably mentioned this in every blog post I’ve made but for the sole purpose of annoying those who don’t want to hear it again 😬, my new year’s resolution was to read every book I currently had in my possession or on my library check out/hold list before adding new ones. I’ve broken it a few times. I’ve definitely purchased new books but if I’m not wrong, those purchases have simply been collectors’ edition books of ones I have already read, plus some highly coveted e-books I couldn’t wait to read. Then there’s the sizable list of ARCs that I requested on NetGalley that I said were technically not a breach of the resolution because they’re ~unpublished and an obligation~ (also I don’t remember when I requested half of them). And then there’s the addendum that I could read culturally and politically relevant non-fiction books to expand my knowledge and improve my allyship. That last one I think actually gets a pass, the rest don’t.

Now, because I love to make a damn fool of myself and also because I need to actually SEEEEEE the giant list of unread books, I’m going to compile them all here. There are four categories: unread physical copies (in my apartment and at my parents’ house), unread library books, unread ARCs, and unread e-books (a list I had completely forgotten existed because I forgot I downloaded a shitton of free e-books from the Bookbub weekly deals email). I’ll add in ALL of them and mark if they’re read and what my rating was if I did. At the very end I’ll stick in the books I’ve read that are NOT on my list just so you can see how my brain actually REFUSES to do what its told.

Quick key to decode my list

  • BOLD: already finished
  • Italics: Not originally on the list I had in January 2020
  • **: I didn’t even know this book was in my possession
  • Underline: Currently reading

Physical books

Despite the fact that I see the first part of this section on a daily basis, I think the overwhelming number of them is what makes them background noise? I’ve become so used to seeing this massive pile of unread books (organised in a rainbow because we gay and also pretty) that I just don’t think about them anymore. I tried the whole, keep some in hands’ reach on my table thing and no dice. The pile just gets larger and larger. Nonetheless, I HAVE read some of them so I’m giving myself credit for that. Yay!

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Books currently with me

  1. The Secret History by Donna Tartt
  2. Dance of Thieves by Mary E. Pearson
  3. The Seven and a Half Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle by Stuart Turton
  4. Bright We Burn by Kirsten White
  5. Kingdom of Copper by S. A. Chakraborty
  6. The Devil’s Thief by Lisa Maxwell
  7. Girls of Paper and Fire by Natasha Ngan ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  8. A Curse So Dark and Lonely by Brigid Kemmerer
  9. We Hunt the Flame by Hafsah Faizal
  10. Nexus by Lindsay Cummins and Sasha Alsberg
  11. King of Scars by Leigh Bardugo
  12. Akata Witch by Nnedi Okorafor
  13. In An Absent Dream by Seanan MgGuire ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  14. Ahimsa by Supriya Kelkar
  15. Traitor to the Throne by Alwyn Hamilton
  16. A Hero at the Fall by Alwyn Hamilton
  17. The Crowns of Croswald by D. E. Night
  18. The Thief by Megan Whalen Turner
  19. The Queen of Attolia by Megan Whalen Turner
  20. King of Attolia by Megan Whalen Turner
  21. The Guinevere Deception by Kiersten White
  22. Prince Charming by Rachel Hawkins ⭐⭐⭐⭐(also listed as Royals…idk why)
  23. The Cactus by Sarah Haywood
  24. Not the Girl You Marry Andie J. Christopher
  25. Marriage Clock by Zara Raheem ⭐⭐⭐
  26. Circe by Madeline Miller
  27. Love, Hate, and Other Filters by Samira Ahmed ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  28. Unmarriageable by Soniah Kamal
  29. The Invention of Hugo Cabret by Brian Selznick
  30. The Fire Keeper by J. C. Cervantes
  31. The Serpent’s Secret by Sayantani DasGupta ⭐⭐⭐
  32. **The Watcher and Other Stories by Italo Calvino
  33. **Under the Jaguar Sun by Italo Calvino
  34. Amal Unbound by Aisha Saeed
  35. Tristan Strong Punches a Hole in the Sky by Kwame Mbalia ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  36. Nevernight by Jay Kristoff
  37. Godsgrave by Jay Kristoff
  38. Darkdawn by Jay Kristoff
  39. The Starless Sea by Erin Morgenstern
  40. Children of Virtue and Vengeance by Tomi Adeyemi
  41. No Judgements by Meg Cabot ⭐⭐⭐
  42. Romanov by Nadine Brandes
  43. If It Makes You Happy by Claire Kann
  44. Jaya and Rasa by Sonia Patel
  45. The Spiritual Poems of Rumi by Rumi and translated by Nader Khalili
  46. Arabian Nights translated by John Payne
  47. Mary Poppins by P. L. Travers
  48. Bygone Badass Broads by Mackenzi Lee (probably won’t read this considering the author is a mess and I’m never comfortable with white people telling the stories of POC)
  49. Enchantée by Gita Trelease
  50. The Bride Test by Helen Hoang
  51. Of Curses and Kisses by Sandhya Menon ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  52. The Chai Factor by Farah Heron
  53. The Blackbird Girls by Anne Blankman
  54. Nazi Saboteurs by Samantha Seiple
  55. Unpregnant by Jenni Hendriks
  56. Clean Getaway by Nic Stone
  57. The Wise and the Wicked by Rebecca Podos
  58. Show Me a Sign by Ann Clare LeZotte
  59. Some Places More than Others by Renée Watson
  60. Mariposa Island by Jennifer Mathieu
  61. Five Dark Fates by Kendare Blake
  62. The Tiger at Midnight by Swati Teerdhala
  63. Spin the Dawn by Elizabeth Lim
  64. The Thousand Doors of January by Alix E. Harrow
  65. The Merciful Crow by Margaret Owen ⭐⭐⭐
  66. Tenth Girl by Sara Faring
  67. The Family Upstairs by Lisa Jewell
  68. Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn
  69. Symptoms of a Heartbreak by Sona Charipotra
  70. The Proposal by Jasmine Guillory
  71. A Woman Is No Man by Etaf Rum
  72. The Far Field by Madhuri Vijay
  73. Naturally Tan by Tan France ⭐⭐⭐
  74. Patron Saints of Nothing by Randy Ribay
  75. The Fowl Twins by Eoin Colfer
  76. Skinful of Shadows by Frances Hardinge
  77. Stone Butch Blues by Leslie Feinberg
  78. Crier’s War by Nina Varela
  79. I Hope You Get The Message by Farah Naz Rishi
  80. Jackpot by Nic Stone
  81. The BFG by Roald Dahl
  82. The Witches by Roald Dahl
  83. Ninth House by Leigh Bardugo
  84. Kingdom of Souls by Rena Barron
  85. Winterwood by Shea Ernshaw
  86. The Way You Make Me Feel by Maurene Goo
  87. Bone by Yrsa Daley-Ward ⭐⭐⭐
  88. Slay by Brittney Morris
  89. Count Me In by Varsha Bajaj
  90. On The Come Up by Angie Thomas
  91. The Beauty that Remains by Ashley Woodfolk
  92. A Girl Like That by Tanaz Bhathena
  93. Rani Patel In Full Effect by Sonia Patel
  94. This Time Will Be Different by Misa Sugiura
  95. Because You Love to Hate Me by Ameriie and various authors
  96. Three Sides of a Heart by Natalie C. Parker and various authors
  97. Even This Page is White by Vivek Shraya ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  98. The Blk Love Mixtape by Brandon Alexander Williams
  99. The Education of Margot Sanchez by Lilliam Rivera
  100. My Favorite Half Night Stand by Christina Lauren
  101. Beauty of the Moment by Tanaz Bhathena
  102. Internment by Samira Ahmed
  103. Frankly in Love by David Yoon
  104. The Me I Used to Be by Jennifer Ryan
  105. Ayesha at Last by Uzma Jalaluddin
  106. Sal and Gabi Break the Universe by Carlos Hernandez
  107. My Fate According to the Butterfly by Gail D. Villaneva
  108. The Giant From the Fire Sea by John Himmelman
  109. The Bollywood Affair by Sonali Dev
  110. Dear Ally, How Do You Write a Book? by Ally Carter
  111. Passion on Park Avenue by Lauren Layne
  112. Protect the Prince by Jennifer Estep
  113. Nevermoore by Jessica Townsend
  114. The Near Witch by V. E. Schwab
  115. Vicious by V. E. Schwab
  116. Vengeful by V. E. Schwab
  117. The Archived by V. E. Schwab
  118. The Unbound by V. E. Schwab
  119. Wayward Son by Rainbow Rowell😒😒😒 (idk if I really want to read this anymore
  120. The Kingdom by Jess Rothenberg
  121. Girl Gone Viral by Arvin Ahmadi
  122. Not The Girl You’re Looking For by Aminah Mae Safi
  123. Watch Us Rise by Renée Watson and Ellen Hagan
  124. Mariam Sharma Hits the Road by Sheba Karim
  125. If You See Me Don’t Say Hi by Neel Patel
  126. Amber and Dusk by Lyra Selene
  127. Foolish Hearts by Emma Mills
  128. Aurora Rising by Aimee Kaufman and Jay Kristoff
  129. Mirage by Somaiya Daud
  130. A Dream So Dark by L. L. McKinney ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  131. One Day in December by Josie Silver ⭐⭐⭐
  132. The Price Guide to the Occult by Leslye Walton
  133. This Is All Your Fault by Aminah Mae Safi
  134. Chain of Gold by Cassandra Clare
  135. Infinity Son by Adam Silvera
  136. God Loves Hair by Vivek Shraya ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  137. Hold Still by Nina LaCour
  138. The Boyfriend Project by Farrah Rochon ⭐⭐⭐
  139. The Worst Best Man by Mia Sosa ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  140. Blanca and Roja by Anna-Marie McLemore
  141. The Conference of the Birds by Ransom Riggs
  142. Dear Sweet Pea by Julie Murphy
  143. Queen of Nothing by Holly Black
  144. Scavenge the Stars by Tara Sim
  145. A Prince on Paper by Alyssa Cole
  146. Beach Read by Emily Henry ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  147. Pretty in Punxsutawney by Laurie Boyle Crompton
  148. The Two Lives of Lydia Bird by Josie Silver
  149. Tales of India published by Chronicle Books
  150. Yes No Maybe So by Aisha Saeed and Becky Albertalli
  151. The Lemon Sisters by Jill Shalvis
  152. A Lesson In Thorns by Sierra Simone
  153. Monstress by Marjorie Liu
  154. The Umbrella Academy: The White Violin by Gerard Way
  155. The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern
  156. Once a Girl, Always a Boy by Jo Ivester
  157. **Into The Way by Italo Calvino
  158. One to Watch by Kate Stayman-London ⭐⭐⭐
  159. Woman World by Aminder Dhaliwal ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

Books with my parents

*sob* I miss them

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  1. The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss
  2. Shadow and Bone by Leigh Bardugo
  3. Seige and Storm by Leigh Bardugo
  4. Ruin and Rising by Leigh Bardugo
  5. The Red Pyramid by Rick Riordan
  6. The Throne of Fire by Rick Riordan
  7. The Serpent’s Shadow by Rick Riordan
  8. Defy Me by Tahereh Mafi
  9. Midsummer’s Mayhem by Rajani LaRocca
  10. Upon a Burning Throne by Ashok Banker
  11. The Return of the King by J. R. R. Tolkien
  12. The Silmarillion by J. R. R. Tolkien
  13. Alice’s Adventures on Wonderland by Lewis Caroll
  14. Gods and Goddesses by Amar Chitra Katha
  15. Les Miserables by Victor Hugo
  16. Heidi by Johanna Spyri
  17. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
  18. Fantastic Beasts by Just Kidding Rolling (won’t be reading this filth)😒
  19. The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah
  20. The Last Magician by Lisa Maxwell
  21. Shadow of the Fox by Julie Kagawa
  22. Strange the Dreamer by Laini Taylor
  23. All the Crooked Saints by Maggie Stiefvater
  24. Dear Evan Hansen by Steven Levenson
  25. More Happy Than Not by Adam Silvera
  26. Ink by Alice Broadway
  27. Nice Try Jane Sinner by Lianne Oelke
  28. Ship It by Britta Lundin (probably won’t read this. all i hear about this is trash also she’s a writer for riverdale that should explain the reviews)
  29. Everlasting Rose by Dhonielle Clayton
  30. An Absolutely Remarkable Thing by Hank Green
  31. The Glass Spare by Lauren DeStefano
  32. The Graces by Laure Eve
  33. My Plain Jane by Cynthia Hand, Jodi Meadows, and Brodi Ashton
  34. The Great Unknowable End by Katherine Ormsbee
  35. Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen
  36. Persuasion by Jane Austen
  37. The Love and Lies of Rukhsana Ali by Sabina Khan
  38. Daughter of the Pirate King by Tricia Levenseller
  39. Witchtown by Cory Putman Oakes
  40. Who Fears Death by Nnedi Okorafor
  41. Iron Cast by Destiny Soria
  42. Sky In The Deep by Adrienne Young
  43. **Catching Stars by Cayla Keenan

ARCs

I originally gave these a pass because I have to review them for NetGalley but with my baby brained lack of object permanence I legiterally forget they exist unless it’s a romance *cough* Talia Hibbert *cough*. NetGalley review ratio keeps me on my toes though so I’ll get to them. The last six are super old ones I haven’t read that tanked my ratio a while ago lmao I’m not showing my ass for those because some of them are super popular and I already know I am a grade A dumbass.

  1. The Silvered Serpents by Roshani Chokshi
  2. Take a Hint, Dani Brown by Talia Hibbert ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  3. The Little Teashop in Tokyo by Julie Caplin (DNF’d this. not a big fan of white people romancing in non-white countries)
  4. The Knockout by S. A. Patel
  5. Come On In Come On In by Adi Alsaid
  6. His Only Wife by Peace Adzo Medie
  7. 10 Things I Hate About Pinky by Sandhya Menon ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  8. Night Owls and Summer Skies by Rebecca Sullivan
  9. Swipe Right by Stephie Chapman ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  10. Girl Crushed by Katie Heaney
  11. (plus six more ARCs I’m not mentioning so I don’t get in trouble so this technically ends at 16 EL OH EL)

Library books

Since these are on my library app, they’re the ones at the forefront of my mind, primarily the audiobooks. This list is perhaps the most telling of how little I’ve stuck to my original goal because I read off the app and audiobook the most. I don’t really regret some of them? There are a few that I added after I realised I should probably read some non fiction if I want to continue being a good ally. Rick Riordan is an attempt to get back my super speed reading but it’s not really working. I’m just sad and anxious of all the bad things happening lmao so reading is taking a real hit. Few of these are still on hold so that’ll take a while. Romance books (and Donna mcfucken Tartt) have a long list of holds so they take a while.

  1. The Tyrant’s Tomb by Rick Riordan
  2. Pointe by Brandy Colbert
  3. Something to Talk About by Meryl Wilsner
  4. The Water Dancer by Ta-Nehisi Coates
  5. Wittgenstein in 90 Minutes by Paul Strathern
  6. The Weight of the Stars by K. Ancrum
  7. Cape May by Chip Cheek (LOL if you know the twitter drama behind this you know why it’s on here but frankly I don’t see myself actually putting in any effort towards reading this one)
  8. The Happy Ever After Playlist by Abby Jimenez
  9. You Deserve Each Other by Sarah Hogle ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  10. The Black Tides of Heaven by JY Yang
  11. A Match Made in Mehendi by Nandini Bajpai
  12. You Should See Me In A Crown by Leah Johnson
  13. Freedom is a Constant Struggle by Angela Y. Davis
  14. A Sweet Mess by Jayci Lee
  15. Bromance Book Club by Lyssa Kay Adams
  16. Royal Holiday by Jasmine Guillory
  17. Would Like To Meet by Rachel Winters
  18. Where’d You Go Bernadette by Maria Semple ⭐⭐⭐
  19. The Deep by Rivers Solomon ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  20. Range: Why Generalists Triumph in a Specialized World by David Epstein ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  21. The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt
  22. Far From You by Tessa Sharpe ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  23. Love and Luck by Jenna Evans Welch ⭐⭐⭐
  24. I’m Still Here: Black Dignity in a World Made of Whiteness by Austin Channing Brown ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  25. We Were Eight Years in Power: An American Tragedy by Ta-Nehisi Coates ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  26. Between the World and Me by Ta-Nehisi Coates ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  27. The New Jim Crow: Mass Incarceration in the Age of Colorblindness by Michelle Alexander ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  28. There Will Come a Darkness by Katy Rose Pool ⭐⭐⭐
  29. A Date with Darcy by Tiffany Schmidt ⭐⭐⭐

E-books on other apps (iBooks, kindle etc)

This is perhaps the most embarassing section of them all.

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I am subscribed to a boatload of book recommendation websites that send out weekly newsletters with discounted e-book and audiobook deals. Once upon a time (read: before Jan 2020) I would scour them weekly and download all the free ones that looked even remotely interesting. I was primarily in search of the really hyped ones that were big time discounted or free. There were a few on occasion but I mostly accumulated the list you see below. If it’s marked with the ** then for sure it was an impulse free download. I knew nothing about them and eventually forgot I even have them on my phone. The non-starred ones I very specifically bought because I wanted to read them but because they’re not on the library app that I most frequently use, they evaporated from my memory until ten minutes ago when I looked through all my digital libraries to compile this list. My conclusion for this section is that I most likely will only read the non starred ones and like mayyyyybeeee Morgan Rice? Regan from Peruse Project mentioned her once in a video perhaps idk. If anything on here is worth it please let me know. Oh also Just Kidding Rolling’s books will remain unread, don’t worry. We don’t support terfs on this enby blog.

  1. **The Lost Knight by Candy Atkins
  2. **Hal by Kate Cudahy
  3. **The Book of Never by Ashley Capes
  4. **Love Undercover by Ellie Spark
  5. **The Art of Peeling an Orange by Victoria Avilan
  6. **The Roommate Disagreement by Leddy Harper
  7. **The Rules of Love by Cara Malone
  8. **We Met In December by Rosie Curtis
  9. **The Murder Pit by Jeff Shelby
  10. **Intangible by C.A. Gray
  11. Swing Time by Zadie Smith
  12. **Ian’s Realm Saga by D. L. Gardner
  13. **The Wendy by Erin Michelle Sky and Steven Brown
  14. **Nocturne For a Widow by Amanda Dewees
  15. The Bastard of Istanbul by Elif Shafak
  16. **Nefertiti’s Heart by A. W. Exley
  17. **Soulbound by Bethany Adams
  18. **Firebold by Adrienne Woods
  19. **Magic of Thieves by C. Greenwood
  20. **Dragon Blood by Lindsay Buroker
  21. **Fire and Ice by Patty Jansen
  22. The Moonstone by Wilkie Collins
  23. The Brothers Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoyevsky
  24. **Wolves of the Northern Rift by Jon Messenger
  25. **Ella the Slayer by A. W. Exley
  26. **Emerge the Scholar by Melissa A. Graven
  27. **Emerge the Awakening by Melissa A. Graven
  28. **Emerge the Edge by Melissa A. Graven
  29. Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë
  30. **The Wall by Jen Minkman
  31. **The Arch of Avooblis by Charles Streams
  32. Work For It by Talia Hibbert
  33. **Hidden by Megg Jensen
  34. **Hunted by Megg Jensen
  35. **Retribution by Megg Jensen
  36. **The Midnight Sea by Kat Ross
  37. **The Emperor’s Edge by Lindsay Buroker
  38. **Arsenic in the Azaleas by Dale Mayer
  39. **Frey by Melissa Wright
  40. **Rise of the Dragons by Morgan Rise
  41. **Fantasy of Frost by Kelly St. Clare
  42. **The Love Solution by Ashley Croft
  43. **Walker Saga by Jaymin Eve
  44. **Autumn in the City of Angels by Kirby Howell
  45. **Elementals by Michelle Madow
  46. The Dark Descent of Elizabeth Frankenstein by Kiersten White
  47. **Year of the Moon by Caren J. Werlinger
  48. Unearthed by Megan Spooner and Amie Kaufman
  49. Hate to Want You by Alisha Rai
  50. **Sinful Cinderella by Anita Valle
  51. **The Second World War by Antony Beevor
  52. Erotic Stories for Punjabi Widows by Balli Kaur Jaswal
  53. **Rise of the Valiant by Morgan Rice
  54. Short Stories from Hogwarts: Of Power, Politics, and Pesky Poltergeists by Just Kidding Rolling😒
  55. Hogwarts: An Incomplete and Unreliable Guide by Just Kidding Rolling😒
  56. Hogwarts: Of Heroism, Hardship, and Dangerous Hobbies by Just Kidding Rolling 😒
  57. **Fate of the Dragons by Morgan Rice
  58. **A Quest of Heroes by Morgan Rice
  59. **A March of Kings by Morgan Rice
  60. **Courtlight Series 1-3 bu Terah Edun
  61. **Uneasy Spirits by M. Louisa Locke
  62. **Death by Honeybee by Abigail Keam
  63. **Play Dead by Lesie O’Kane
  64. **The Eye of Shiva by Alex Lukeman
  65. **The Waiting Booth by Brinda Berry
  66. Didn’t Stay in Vegas by Chelsea M. Cameron ⭐⭐⭐
  67. **Maelyn by Anica Valle
  68. **Song of the Mountain by Michelle Isenhoff
  69. **Awaken by Humphrey Quinn
  70. **Mesmer by Isabella Amaris
  71. **The Sanctuary Series by Robert J. Crane
  72. **Island of Fog by Keith Robinson
  73. **Blackmoore Sisters Cozy Mysteries 1-3 by Leighann Dobbs
  74. **Discern by Andrea Pearson
  75. **Marking Time by April White
  76. **Magemother by Austin J. Bailey
  77. **One O’Clock Hustle by Joanne Pence
  78. **7 Against the Dark (apparently this is seven first books in seven different paranormal romance series and now I’m just too exhausted to actually look at the book titles and authors)
  79. **Death Sung Softley by David Archer
  80. **Del Ryder and the Crystal Seed by Matthew David Brough
  81. **The Time Machine by H.G. Wells
  82. Little Women by Lousia May Alcott
  83. **Rise of the Olympians by Belle Ward
  84. **Savannah Martin Mysteries 1-3 by Jenna Bennett
  85. **The Academy Thief by C. L. Stone
  86. **The Gaugin Connection by Estelle Ryan
  87. **Lady Dancer by Glynnis Campbell
  88. **Fires of Alexandria by Thomas. K Carpenter
  89. **The forgotten Ones by Laura Howard
  90. **Evensong by Krista Walsh
  91. **Blood Orchids by Toby Neal
  92. **The Zimmah Chronicles by Scott King
  93. **His Stolen Bride by Shelly Thacker
  94. **The Dark Realm by Anthea Sharp
  95. **Queen of Someday by Sherry D. Ficklin

Ok…. now time to analyse the numbersssughhhhhhhhh

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  • 159 with me +43 with my parents =202 physical books holy FUCK
    • 14 are 2020 purchases
    • 21 are completed as of July 25th
      • 8 of them are from the 2020 purchases smh but this does tell me that majority of these new purchases were immediately read so not a needless purchase
    • 2 are currently being read and by currently I mean I started them and they might or might not be lowest priority 😞
  • 16 ARCs +28 digital library books +95 personal e-books=139 digital books OOF
    • 94 of the personal e-books are most likely not going to be read. like if i’m being very very very honest with myself that’s actually not happening. if i remembered the smattering of romance books I have among these then yes they will instantaneously be read but the others…uhhh no.
    • 32 books out of all my digital copies were added to my purchases/holds/check outs this year
    • 18 books in total have been read
      • 13 were added this year again proving that I either have been very intentional with the books I chose to break my resolution or that I have a track record of finishing my impulse books…it’s definitely the former lmao if i’m breaking my resolution it’s not happening in vain
    • 7 in total are currently being read and again all of these were added this year once again because I don’t want to add books willynilly without purpose… good for me I guess
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more calculations…

202+139=341 books total

21+18=39 books finished

sooo that’s 341-39=302 books need to be read

… lemme just…👀… 302-94=218 …👀…because if I’m being honest those 94 unread personal e-books are literally never going to be acknowledged unless I remember the five romance books I bought…slim chance there too because of aforementioned childlike object permanence.

2+7=9 are currently being read or have been started

If i get those 9 done then it’s just 209 books to read before I purchase a new book. The resolution for the 228939743692874569th time is to finish all books currently in my possession/from the library before I buy or check out any new books in 2020. I only really managed 100 books a year for like 2 years in a row and I’m not really keeping pace with the 100 books for 2020 so at this point all my books with likely NOT be finished by 2020.

I still definitely want to go for 100 books and it’s possible if I can somehow magic up the mood for the romance books currently accessible to me. That’s like the easiest way to go about it. The rest is up to the elements.

This has been definitely an interesting experiment to say the least. I’ve become really frugal with my purchases. I haven’t bought any new books on impulse because I’ve always deferred to getting a library e-book or audiobook. Saved me loads of cash lol. I’ve also become more intentional with the books I have impulse checked out this year. A good many of them have been audiobooks of books I actually own which has eased the reading process. Others are books discussing race or career options (oh the panic of job finding in your early/mid 20s with brown parents on your ass about being the family disappointment…love that). And the last few have just been highly anticipated releases and romances I inhaled in a matter of hours. The purchases I did make have been books like the Check Please! graphic novel, Book of the Month/other subscription boxes I forgot to skip (the intentional renewals were all romance), and the occasional collector’s edition. Five books were received as gifts if I remember correctly.

It is now increasingly clear to me that I’m a mood reader, have a far easier time reading romance, and am more likely to read ones I own if I’m sitting in my car listening to an audiobook. I’m also shit at sticking to goals with loyalty but that’s to be expected.

Obviously 2021 is a long way off but 2020 has been a shitshow and I kinda want to get this year and this resolution over with so I’m just going to plan it out now. Or at least draft it. I’m definitely not going to do a hard purchase ban but I’ll limit purchases to collector’s editions and books I have already read and liked enough to want a copy of my own. That’s a decent compromise between my maximalist tendencies and my anti-capitalist anti-consumerist ideologies.

which reminds me:

there can be no ethical consumption under capitalism (lmao)

-my friend Claudia and Marx probably idk don’t take my word for it I did my two minute google search then got bored
Flashing gif of Karl Marx with rotating fire emojis and a floating caption in german x english that I could not decipher idk something about capitalism probably

…anyways…

Beyond that it’ll have to be a mood read toggle between what I own and library check outs so that I don’t have an endlessly growing pile of unread books sitting in my apartment and my parents’ house for the rest of my weird life.

That concludes this bigass listicle of a blog post. Hope you found my cataloguing and number analysis mildly intriguing. If my numbers are off and you paid enough attention to spot it please tell me because it will kill my math teacher ego to know that I published incorrect calculations. If there are any books on my list you KNOW for damn sure I will have an absolute blast reading leave a comment with your thoughts! That will definitely be a good motivation to read what I have.

Thanks for reading and I’ll see you when I fancy another word vomit

k byeeeeeee

😙✌🏽

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